Luke Holmberg Obituary, Death – Luke Andrew. My husband, my perfect match, my closest friend, my lover, and the one I will be with for all of eternity. Because of the excruciating pain and anguish that I’ve been experiencing over the past few days, every single one of my body’s parts is in excruciating pain right now. Even as I type this, with my hands trembling and my eyes welling up with tears, it is difficult to believe that it has actually happened.
Why I was spared but you weren’t is neither fair nor logical; the situation should have been reversed. It is beyond my comprehension, and I seriously doubt that I ever will. It is challenging to be the person who must somehow pick up the pieces of our life after we have worked so diligently to construct them together. Being the person who is left behind. Our life was breathtaking and ideal, but in the blink of an eye, everything was torn away from me along with the enjoyment it had brought me in the past.
The next thing I know, we were laughing, reminiscing, and holding hands, and the next thing I know, I’m standing on the side of the road yelling for you while holding our son and praying for the fortitude to believe that you would be okay. The amount of time that we should have been able to spend together has been stolen from us, which makes life even more unbearably short. I long to once more feel your touch, I long to once more experience your kiss, and I long to once more see your happy face.
It breaks my heart to think that Levi might be too little to remember, but at the same time, I’m alright with the idea that he’ll get to live his life without having to deal with the pain that I’ll have to carry with me for the rest of my life. I have no idea what is ahead for us, but I do know that I will never be the same person I was before. The old version of myself passed away along with you, and I’m terrified of the new life I’ll have to lead after you’re gone.